Well, January was quite an interesting month. My cousin and her husband let me crash with them for the month while i got my life together from my messy breakup.And dealt with the games my ex insisted on playing. While i was taking the time to heal and to find inner peace, my ex decided to party it up and sleep with who ever he wanted. So what did i decide to do? I decided to have some fun of my own. Obviously our relationship must have meant nothing to him so why would i let me affect me.And that is when i decided to make my move on an acquaintance that i had met while i was with my bf. Since i wont mention any real names on here, i'll call my first hook-up "Disturbia". There are some of you who know who this is, please keep his name private, thank you! Well anyways, we met and hit it off pretty well. We would text and talk about basic boring things until one day he said that he wanted to taste my lips.Yea i was pretty much blown away by this. But then i figured "what the hell im single i could do what ever the hell i wanted" and that is just what i did. I did put off us hanging out because i knew where it would head. it was inevitable, then one day when he asked if i wanted to watch a movie i said sure. We met up for coffee and we talked for a while there, things were a little awkward because we both knew what was gonna end up happening. So we finished our coffee and we went back to his place to watch a movie. The drive to his house was a little weird. there was that scary silence the kind where you dont know what could happen next. When we got to his house i was a little nervous because i already knew what was gonna happen and i hadnt been with any other man besides my ex for the past 3 years. once we got inside we made ourselves comfortable, taking off our shoes and slowly starting to lean on each other. With out thinking i rested my head on his shoulder and right when i did that he looked down and i could tell he was about to lean in and kiss me. Well i was right, he leaned in and kissed me, a slow sweet and tempting kiss. Once we pulled away from each other, it was like some one poured gasoline all over the place and struck a match, the heat intensified extremely between us and well lets just say, the living room was empty for the rest if the night.The next morning was also quite pleasurable. After our morning work out, he took a shower and i gave him a massage that nearly put him back to sleep, well it actually did but it was just a catnap. once the both of us woke up we decided it was time to head out. On the way back to my home, he was holding my hand. That was something i found quite weird. When we dropped me off he came and opened my door and i slid out of the seat to continue my walk of shame. but he stopped my by placing his hand on my stomach and pulling me into him for a good bye kiss. We kissed and i was released from his grasp to continue my walk of shame. After that day we hardly talked/texted which lead me to ask him if it was just a one time thing. He said no, that he wanted to still hang out with me. Well, we kept talking and texting after that but not as much as we did before. When he would get his kids, oh did i mention that he was (is) married and has 3 kids? and he lead me to believe he was 33 years old, when in reality he is 38, which makes him 17 years older than me. Yup, i said 17 YEARS!! that was quite a shocker but back to his marrrige, i guess he never got around to finalizing his divorce so basically he is still married. well one weekend night, we were talking and he had his kids over and his youngest one wanted to talk to me. I thought he was gonna say something to the effect that i was just a friend and to go play. Well i thought wrong! he handed his little one the phone and we talked for a while. Well after that night we kept talking and one night he asked what i was doing and i told him,"not a damn thing". That then turned into him telling me to be ready in 15 min. cause he was gonna be on his way. So i got ready and waited for him. As i was waiting,i looked at the clock my cousin has up that also says the date, and thats when i realized,it was my ex's and i 3 year anniversary, well what would have been. And there i was, spending it with another man, doing,well im pretty sure you know what we were doing. Well i ended up staying the night with him and spending that whole day there with him and didnt get home till that evening.And that was the last time i have seen him.We kinda talked but its nothing thats gonna go anywhere, i hope. lets hope he stays in my past. Well the day i got home, i checked my facebook and i seen that i had a friend request from this guy i didnt know. at first i was just like who hell is this guy and then i thought ohh what the hell so i added him. Well call him "yoshi".
to be continued...
